The lovers, the dreamers,
And me
- The Rainbow Connection, Jason Mraz -

I'm finally going to have my first driving lesson today :D And if you thought "But you had your license last year?" You're not wrong. Dad's finally got the whole thing going and we've got the L-plate sign already :D I'm ready to go!

First day of summer break and I have to say, over this weekend, I've spent a fair bit. Retail therapy really. Somewhat...an excuse :D I've grown to embrace my position as Vice Captain for 2010 and do my best at it instead of being disappointed because really, it's not that bad as have many mentioned.

But yes, on Saturday, I had my Cotton On Induction and as a result of a five hour training session, I have received a Staff Card with a 30% discount at any purchase! :D *dances around* And very "like-me", I immediately went to Cotton On in Melbourne Central to buy some of my first 'work clothes' :D I bought a top and two skirts upon purchase :D All were $19.95 originally but discounted to $13.95-ish. GOOD PURCHASE and especially when they're ALL the new fashion line :) I'll upload photos when I do wear them out.

Today, I spent more money, but very wisely of course. Parents took Chelle and I to DFO Essendon for only an hour but I bought A LOT. Well, then again, it depends what 'a lot' counts for you. I bought a total of four garments :D Two pairs of jeans and two cardigans :)

The two cardis were from Glassons:
While the two pairs of jeans were from Just Jeans:
Again, I'll post photos of them when I do end up wearing them :D The cardis were $15 and $20 after discount but Glassons was having an in-store sale for everything going at "BUY ONE GET ONE FREE"! So, in the end, I paid $20 for two perfectly good light-weight cardigans!

Just Jeans were having their usual jeans sale in their store. Normally, I don't end up buying any but this time, I knew I needed to get some new jeans. I basically have two pairs of jeans before buying these and they are my Kenji denim-tone skinny jeans and Deborah K black-skinnys. They both have begun to fall apart and to no end am I patching holes and rips :( So, when I saw they were selling jeans for $29.95, I started scouting the pile :D Lucky for me, I found two pairs, different in their own ways but still, what I believe to be fashionable, according to ASOS anyways ;)

That marks the end of my shopping spree until I get paid again ;)
Adios!

p.s. Don't you think Marsden is so cute :D

There's nothing left to say,
Don't waste another day
- Do You Remember, Jay Sean feat. Sean Paul -

Sometimes, in life we feel as though life has hit "rock bottom" and there is quite honestly no one in this planet who would understand the pain you're going through. But chances are, there probably will be someone who would.

One of the hardest things in life is not to be mistreated unequally, but to swallow pride and accept defeat. The piercing feeling stabs your heart as you try to accept the fact that you had not gotten what you wanted.

We deserve nothing and everything is given by God through His divine grace. It is all a blessing, whatever we get or do not receive. As doors seem to slowly close on us, we know that another door somewhere opens for us. We just need to have faith that the opened door is out there and walk in the Lord with trust and strength. Don't turn yourself away from pain but walk through it.

It's all within reach, but you miss by a little and something which meant so much to you was given to someone else. Maybe it meant too much. Possibly.

Be thankful and do the job they have given you voluntarily with happiness. God always loves a cheerful giver. Let us all be cheerful givers no matter where we stand in life as an individual or a nation.

It isn't as if it's horrible either! It's just not what you expected in return. From nothing, to something. Thank you Lord :)

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape
- Down, Jay Sean -

There was something on my arm. I didn't know what it was though. Felt as though it was the wind, or you know, that kind of feeling where you think there's something on your arm but really there wasn't. Unlike my usual self, I decided to ignore it but I felt it again. I looked at my arm and there it was, a true critter. Red and black spots; a ladybird. Ultimately extremely freaked out, I swept it off my arm and as I look back, I kid you not, it began BOUNCING AWAY. Well, I didn't know ladybirds were bounce-able.

Well, tomorrow's my last day of school before Presentation Night. Tomorrow's also the day I've been waiting for, ever since Term 3. If I'm successful, I get a call. If I'm not, I find out on Friday via email. The last time I felt so stressed was the day I had my interview and cello exam on the first day of Term 4. It's the very uneasy feeling I experience of doubt and anxiety. I don't know what to expect, what to believe.

I think about the feeling as to if I don't receive a call and tears fill my eyes slowly. Just thinking about it makes me miserable. But what if it does happen? The sense of defeat drowns me but I know whoever is elected will be a great leader. The candidates were all amazing which leads me to compare and ask myself, what is it I have which they don't? *shrugs*

It's so frustrating having to compete with people you spend time the most in a week. It becomes personal, hurtful, rough and crude. Everyone wants the same thing but there's not enough of the same thing for everyone. Battered and bruised, I just want to know what the answer is; a yes or no. As piercing as the worst result may be, I need to know. It may be too much to ask why, but I know I will ask myself that.

Well, that's how life is, isn't it? There's always going to be someone better than you and when you meet that person(s), your secure box of life breaks down the walls and suddenly you're faced with reality. You do nothing except the one thing everyone does; doubt.

Trust that things will be for the better.
Trust that whatever happens, it happened for a reason.
Trust that I'll pull through.
Trust that I'll be okay.

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things?
Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete?
- War, Jay Sean -



LOL!!!

Proton has begun to emerged into the Australian car industry and they have a nice cool name for the model! No no, it's not a Proton Wira, Saga, Perdana, Waja, Persona or even Exora.... It's... *drumrolls*

S16

Now, isn't that a more sophisticated car model :P It's all the more amusing when you hear people pronouncing Proton in the same way they pronounce the element of an atom. "Proh-tohn", SERIOUSLY?

I'm not sure why, but Proton will always be "Potong" to me. I don't seriously believe it will ever elevate to an international level. It's not as if it's had the best reputation to begin with, and now they're trying to compete with cars from Toyota, Peugeot and Holden, the company that is considered one of the safest? How interesting.

Gotta stiff neck atm.


1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

Getting closer and closer to Summer Break :O

I don't know much,
But I know I love you
- Don't Know Much, Linda Ronstadt & Aaron Neville -

Four more days of school.

I just want holidays to start.

To be honest, I haven't imagined how my holidays would be like. Everything's still too whatever-ed at the moment :)

I just ran out to snap some shots of the sky today. Here's why.
It's God's creation, you know. My first cello teacher was a very inspiring woman; not only was she a great cellist, but also a great devotee to Christ in all that He has in store for her. She once told me that God was an amazing painter because in a way, he painted the skies and the seas and the world in the way it is today. Well, when I saw the skies the way they were today; that was the only thing that was on my mind. How beautiful God made the world to be :)

Sure, I don't have some significant other to enjoy the atmosphere with me but you know what; God's with me watching by my side :D And as I smile, I know he smiles with me :)

Today, at Peter's school, I was just looking at everyone there and for some unknown reason, I was suddenly fired up by the frustration I've been put through all my life as a girl growing up in this big world. Had to be skinny, had to be flawless, had to be popular, had to be doing what everyone else did, had to be cool; all these stupid things and guidelines to how to be a SOMEBODY in high school.

Well, I'm proud to say, I didn't follow all that because I have a great family and God to support and guide me in the true way of life. Who knows what would've become of me? I tried so hard to conform and to be someone else when truth is, I'm not. I can never be a size 6 or 8, nor will I ever have any tinier thighs. I can never not have pimples on my face, nor will I ever be loved by everyone. I can never do what everyone else is doing cos I have something in my heart called a conscience and so what if these things make me any "less cool".

I can't always face my insecurities based on what others think of me. I just have to be me, and whoever accepts me for who I am; they will be who I will enjoy company with, without having to be someone I'm not.

Feels like I'm born again,
Feels like I'm living
- Born Again, Third Day feat. Lacey Mosely -

WHAT A CRAZY WEEKEND

Did so much and obviously, had HEAPS OF FUN! Adding on to that, I managed to cross off ALOT of things on my "To-Buy List" on the Left hand side of the blog ;)
Things I got for my birthday include:
A good microphone from SonLife!
Casting Crowns new album; "Until the Whole World Hears" from Daniel & Aaron
Bloom Platinum Eyeshadow from Karlie & Ashlee
Versace Perfume from Julian, Dom and Jess
Giraffe Horse Plushie + Weird Toy + $1.80 from Tyson & Sam
Pilgrim Dress from Jen and Kim
Little Women novel from Josie
Music Notes Wallet from Jade & Sibel
Big Scarf from Gwen
Plushie from Victor
Rob Thomas' Cradlesong from Luke

Now that all my awesome presents are out of the way, I can talk about HOW I finally celebrated my great 17th :P

Thursday, 19th Nov. 2009
I made plans with my four best friends; Jade, Luke, Louis and Victor to somewhat celebrate my birthday :D We also needed to catch up really, since we haven't hung out together as a group for a VERY LONG TIME :( I miss them sometimes :(We took a few more photos but since there's so many photos to upload, these ones were the best :D

Friday, 20th Nov. 2009
Made a new trip to Coburg with friends from SONLIFE to have my birthday dinner (long overdue). They bought me this awesome card which sings to me too ;) Had turkish food and wow- a lot of BREAD and MEAT. I tasted my first slice of Lamb and feel slightly guilty now especially after watching Channel Nine film a documentary on animal cruelty :( Nonetheless, the food was amazing :D The live musicians also played 'Happy Birthday' to me when everyone started singing LOL. Amusingly awkward ROFL. But still, a lot of fun just taking photos and really bonding with this new but great group of friends. Thanks for a great time guys and I hope you had an awesome time too! Later, a few of them came back to our place and we just hung around while watching my sister, Aaron, Avis, Mark and Chris play Wii boxing. LOL.

Saturday, 21st Nov. 2009
One uber packed day, and I'm not kidding :( I spent my afternoon at Macleay Park, celebrating my 17th with some of my SCHOOL FRIENDS. It was pretty awesome and I have to say, they made things really easy for me :D "Thanks for helping to clean up and for giving me a great afternoon!" It was a wonderful time and thankfully, no one broke anything or anyone! Surprisingly.... Jade bought me a cake! I have to be honest, I was a bit suspicious but more worried because she went missing for quite awhile which really freaked me out :@ And when I looked for her, she wasn't there :( Stupid Jade.


Later in the day, an hour after wrapping up my party, I went to Jono K.'s 18th! Damn, he's one old man now :P *jokeees* To Jono: May God bless you in everything that He has in store for you. In times of doubt or fear, may God provide you with the faith and strength to trust in Him wholeheartedly and truly, lean not on your own understanding for Christ has given you life to treasure. Through grace, God has given you 18 years on this planet and definitely plenty more to come and in all that you are here for, I know God has a reason for you, Jonathan Kang to be here today. Whatever that reason may be, God knows and may He continue to work in you to glorify His name so that when people see you, they see a reflection of God in the image of man. Thanks for a great time and I'm sure God will pave your way as you walk with Him in the journey of life!

Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together,
Well, it's always better when we're together
- Better Together, Jack Johnson -

A beautiful love song I have to say :)

GUESS WHAT?
What?
I GOT A HAIRCUT!

:Before::After:
It's actually not that short but still kinda miss my long hair :( I run my fingers through my hair and there's nothing left to run through :S But I did have really horribly damaged hair so it's a good thing.

I got it cut at Hair La Ross on Lonsdale St. earlier today. It's just my usual to get it cut there; kinda expensive but I don't trust my hair with someone else. Problem is if I get it cut in a dodgy Box Hill place, my hair can go whacks because it's naturally wavy :D Good for me, my hairstylist, Alan, knows what he's doing; so I'm quite obviously happy! Took a whole hour because he popped all these products and straightened my hair O_o? Even though my Cantonese was only borderline awesome, somehow, we got a conversation going and ended up talking bout:
1. Chinese kids who can't speak Chinese.
2. TVB Movies
3. Hair cuticles
4. China QC
5. Straighteners
6. GHD

He also gave me lotsa tips on how to make my hair better without being ripped off :P Quite a handy and economical stylist. But I'm quite happy with the result of $55, so thank you Alan :)

After the hair appointment, I went to COSTCO to do some shopping for this Saturday and holy-moly-geebus-jeepers, it is MASSIVE. Quite seriously, it has everything and not only everything, but TRIPLE THE SIZE. I think it's almost dirt cheap. I was looking for serviettes and they were selling 4 packets for 15 bucks but each packet had 330 PIECES. That's like 1320 A MILLION SERVIETTES. I didn't end up getting it though cos it was just pointless to have so many serviettes at home :p

One thing that caught my eye for sure, was this.A STEREO SPEAKER AND SUBWOOFER!
Dad has always been the "rock" kinda person. I think it has something to do with him spending his university years in the U.K. It was $250 and considering it's specs. were pretty good, Dad asked me if I wanted one! As much as I wanted it, my room is almost incapable of having any more electronic equipment.

Dad: "Li, Lei oi mou？" (Li, do you want this?)
Liz: "Mm oi la, mou wai zhai!" (Nah, there's no room for this!)
Mum: "Hou pheng le, ho yi lum ha" (It's really cheap, we can think about it)
Liz: "Wah mi, lei tou zan seng? Di, sai lek ah!!" (Wow Mum, you agree too? Dad, nice!)
Mum: "Pehng mahhh... (It's cheaaap!)
Dad: "Hai lor, oi zai fong tou tak!" (Yeah! You can put it in your room!
Mum: "ZAI FONG? Pin tou tak!" (In her room!? No way!)
Dad: "Mm zai fong, zai pin tou o! Li ti hai zai fong ge la.." (If we don't put it in her room, where is it gonna be? These things are for her room..)
Mum: "Mm tak la! Zai fong zau mm tak! ZAU." (NO! If it's in the room, then we can't buy it! Let's go!
Liz: "Peen tak kei fai ah." (She changed so quickly..)

In Costco, there's a cafe for people to just have lunch at and I have to say, they have the COOLEST STUFF. Look how they serve their Onions!!
You turn the knob on the right clockwise and it pushes out chopped onions onto hot dogs bought at the cafe! Absolutely the COOLEST way of serving onions O.O

I had the CHICKEN BAKE.
It had baked chicken pieces, cheese and caesar sauce. For 5 bucks, it was soooo filling and definitely a very good lunch :P I couldn't finish it :S Also, parents bought hot dogs so they came with REFILLABLE DRINKS. And not only did the machines fill up cups with drinks but also ICE. It had all these "Push for Ice" stuff. Crap, it was the best lunch experience :D

***

I just received an email and it's really appealed to me so hopefully it'll do the same to you. It initially asked me to pass it on but I know how much chain emails can be a pain in the arse so I'll just post it up here :)
My name is Chris ,
I am three,
My eyes are swollen..
I cannot see.

I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made,
My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy,
Would still want to hug me.

I can't do a wrong,
I can't speak at all,
Or else I'm locked up,
All day long.

When I'm awake,
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.

When my mommy does come home,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll just get,
One whipping tonight.

I just heard a car,
My daddy is back,
From Charlie's bar

I hear him curse,
My name is called ,
I press myself,
Against the wall.

I try to hide,
>From his evil eyes,
I'm so afraid now,
I'm starting to cry.

He finds me weeping,
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault,
He suffers at work.

He slaps and hits me,
And yells at me more,
I finally get free,
And run to the door.

He's already locked it,
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me,
Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor,
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues,
With more bad words spoken.

'I'm sorry!', I scream,
But it's now much to late,
His face has been twisted,
Into a unimaginable sh ape.

The hurt and the pain,
Again and again,
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!

And he finally stops,
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless,
Sprawled on the floor.

My name is Chris ,
I am three,
Tonight my daddy,
Murdered me.

♥ Rest in peace little ones.

I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
- Your Body is Wonderland, John Mayer -

After all that exams;HAH. There we go; that pile's all cleaned up :D
Also, I'm SELLING MY ACCOUNTING TEXTBOOK so if anyone's interested, please contact me :) If you really want, I'll give you my workbook. I don't really care. I just don't want it anymore :D

Day's actually gone GREAT. Did LOTS of things and had a very productive arvo :) At bout eleven, I went to Westfield with my parents and bought my birthday present :DOne thing crossed off the "To-Buy List" :D
I went to Ozmosis and spent about half an hour just figuring what colour, model and pattern I wanted :P I really didn't want to get the normal black ones because I thought they would be too plain and since half the time I'd be wearing them with black shorts/skinnys, I figured to go for a bit of colour :P The coral one looked nice on the shelf but I guess my olive-skinned-asian-snakey-feet don't match :( So, I opted for a very risky and challenging colour; PURPLEYPINK :O It was $24.95 because the straps(?) were rubber :D

After making our way back, parents and Aunty Kim took me to the city cos they had to do some stuff and since I was in such great membership to MissyConfidential; I was entitled to a FREE BOBBI BROWN LIP LINER SAMPLE :D
I have to say though, it was a rather long walk :( I totally forgot that only buses run along Lonsdale St. and trams don't! I kept walking along Lonsdale St from Spring St and realized at the LonsdaleXRussell that there were no tram stops! :( So, I walked all the way down to Swanston :@ ARGH. But nevermind that, I got to see the MYER Christmas deco and *AWW* they had little Piglets on display! Not only were they cute, but they also MOVED and TALKED :D
Later, we went to Crown Cafe (the one NOT at Crown) to have lunch :) We walked along Hardware Lane which had alot of restaurants and definitely gave a very European feel to Australia's backdoor lanes :P
Quite a nice place and at some point, I'd love to dine in one of those fancy cafes :D

To wrap it all up; guess what my desktop wallpaper is?
♥

So baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down
- Down, Jay Sean feat. Lil Wayne -

1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

Hey ho, hey ho!

EXAMS ARE OVER!

I have ZERO exams for the year! It's all over! And to finish off, I have to say it ended on a fairly good note :D Since I'm quite eager for a long post to happen, I shall rate all my exams :P
i. ESL - Overall, it was okay. I had extra time and I went way over the word limit which, confirmed by the teacher, was okay :D
ii. Legal - The most important one. It was good, I enjoyed it and although I don't think I did enough to get a full set, I think it was still good :)
iii. Accounting - This went surprisingly well! That's all I'll say. It's Accounting- doesn't deserve much words D:
iv. Methods - The worst one. Rushed, didn't have enough time and didn't finish the paper.
v. Literature - I guess this went alright. I knew what I was writing and had some form of transparent structure in my essay?
vi. General - Anytime better than Methods :@ A good ending to my exam period :D

Since all the exams are over and done with, I can look forward to other things now :D

Now, when I finished my exam, I went on Hotmail and The Age to read my emails and the 'world news'. I'll go with the Hotmail incident first!I got emailed by Ticketmaster a 'discount' for the David Straussman Ted E Farewell Tour! I'm desperate to go really! Anyone wanna come with? :D If you don't know who David Straussman is, go on Youtube and basically watch his vid! So far, my favourite is the bus one :D

I've realized I don't have enough music. Well, not enough; just updated. So, I went onto Billboard.com and download songs that titles seem to interest me. Some, I download just to seek new listening artistes.So far, I've really liked the lot that I've listened to!

Moving on... The Age, unfortunately, had less exciting and positive news. There were lots of news about FACEBOOK being misused.A few weeks ago, there was an incident where two girls were gang raped after an unofficial football match. The two boys are charged and some part of society feels this charge is despicable and evidently, side the defendants in this case. So, in response, they started a Facebook group to support the two alleged suspects.

Linked to it, was another article about a group of students in the University of Sydney who started a group who supported 'pro-rape'. Heading says, Elite college students proud of 'pro-rape' Facebook page. Which female in their sane mind would ever enroll in this university if this is what the other half of the tertiary institution thinks? That women are meat. Disgusting.

The two articles above were sourced by the headliner article below.It talks about how Facebook has extended its use beyond personal networking services but also into the professional expertise such as "private detectives to search for leads on people who have tried to disappear to avoid mounting debts" or "employers exploring sites to check the profiles of prospective staff" or "police to trap men who target teenage girls on chat sites". But beyond serving justice in society today, obviously there are the insecurities. Some girls are stalked and that really scares me because it shows how flawed the internet is despite Firewall and all that jazz. However, continue reading, girls from an exclusive Melbourne girls school have taken pornographic photos of themselves and posted them to their boyfriends. The pictures have then been forwarded to an unknown number of teenage boys leaving the girls' reputations in tatters." I'm sorry, but these girls, I have no sympathy for. Their tattered reputation have no one to blamed for but themselves. Pornography is an idiotic issue and if you don't agree with me, I don't care. I don't think anyone could FORCE someone to take pornographic photos of themselves; persuade perhaps, but not force unless they were threatening your life and all that jazz. Teaches everyone else to be careful about what photos we take. It's somewhat pathetic.

Senator Steve Fielding was interviewed today by 3AW's Neil Mitchell in response to the government's official apology to the forgotten Australians. He was sexually abused as a young teenager for a few years by a family friend and decided to speak about it very briefly. If you want to read about it, click here. Touched my heart and quite honestly, very moving talk.

I want to know You,
I want to hear Your voice
- Deeper, Planetshakers -

Vicious Circle

Life has many vicious circles. The Catch 22 as some say.

I am satisfied, resolved, thankful but also hopeful. I know I have done less than required, and unsatisfactory thus deserve only what is rightful.

Anyways.
More importantly, I found a group called, "I Knew That Song Before It Became Popular" and to be honest, I can relate to that quite closely with this band.I found out about them through Myspace at the start of Year 9 really but it didn't get popular until months later :D In a way, they were like my favourite secret and in school, I'd secretly hum to their song and I remember quite clearly, my favourite song from them was 'Fireworks' *hums to it now*

I remember the morning 'Hey There Delilah' hit the radios and it became a Number One. Girls walked into class singing it and I think my heart quite literally fell apart to pieces. In a way, it's worth being celebrating because they've become some awesome band but on the other hand, they were MY secret :( Anyways, I stopped listening to them because people "oversang" it and the radio "overplayed" it.

Over the weekend, I've been watching the House and How I Met Your Mother episodes I've missed due to the stupid event called "EXAMS". The recent episode was quite scary in fact and not very happy for me. If you haven't seen it, DON'T READ ON. CLICK SOMEWHERE ELSE.

CLICK HERE


If you're still reading now, then you have chosen to do this and I am not held liable for any spoilers! SPOILERS ALERT.




I have to say, I really wanted Robin and Barney to be together :( It would have been the greatest thing. To have Barney Stinson, Neil Patrick Harris look like THIS: IS INSANE.
Then again, at the end when there was a "cold breeze"- that was funny :P

House episode was a slight let down especially with the re-appearance of Lucas. SERIOUSLY, everyone knows the directors know that Cuddy should end up with House but no...... They reintroduce a character as a romantic interest for Cuddy just to spark things up! I was IN TEARS from the moment House saw Lucas in Cuddy's room :( House is reformed, changed- and Cuddy SHOULD KNOW. A second chance- when the first chance was never given out in the first place? But needless to say, Cuddy's hair is really nice this season and her baby is adorable :D Just not in the hands of Lucas! D:

All my life is for You,
Everything is for You
- Rejoice in You, Planet Shakers -

ONE MORE TO GO!

1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

I have my LAST exam for the year TOMORROW. Even though it's possibly the exam I will stuff up the most, I'm looking forward to 11am, Monday the 16th of November 2009! That marks the end of studying for Year 11 :D Of course, it gears up again, possibly at the end of December. How ironically stupid.

I am however, (regardless of how much work I'll need to do) quite excited for the coming weeks :D Not thrilled about the whole Course Conf. and all but really psyched for my first work shift at Crown :D Next Sunday in fact! But I don't get paid until mid-December. But still :D I'm thankful!

In fact, before all that; I'm celebrating my birthday with friends! :D Gonna take heaps of photos and probably upload ;) I feel quite terrible that my blog is somewhat photo-deficient during these few current posts :(

Adding on, I took a photo of my motivation to study Legal throughout the last week or so :)Whenever I'm procrastinating and not wanting to study Legal... I'd look at that and go, "I don't want to get a text saying I got 20 :S" *goes study NOW* It's somewhat worked and hopefully in some ways, paid off for my exam too!

I have my Cotton On Induction in two weeks and to be quite honest, I'm REALLY EXCITED!! I don't really know what to expect but whatever it is, I'm sure it'll be great :D Hopefully I get lotsa shifts throughout the week :D



Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
- What'cha Say, Jason Derulo -

1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

As you can see, I have officially crossed out HALF my exams for this semester! :D *Parties*

I have my Methods and Literature Exam tomorrow and to be honest, it's not exactly the worst or greatest feeling. I feel about say 90% ready for Methods and for Literature, 80%. If there's something I can take away from last night studying, it's;
NEVER WATCH 'MINORITY REPORT' AT NIGHT IN THE DARK!
I nearly shat my self (no not really) when Agatha randomly screams cos I had not watched the beginning yet. It's a good movie really. But it's still A REALLY EERIE MOVIE. Colours are all faint and desaturated. Intense music playing in the background. Looking into people's eyes. Far out, it's too much for a Thursday night!

But anyways, amusing enough, again, I had a dream about my exam. Not my Methods though, Literature. It was like pretty stupid cos I ended up talking to a friend for so long, finding out he's dating some International Student girl and I failed Literature :( Sucks doesn't it? :(



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My Legal Exam is 5 and a half hours away at this very moment.

Nerve Wrecking I'll tell ya

I was having a fairly adequate night's sleep really except I had the most horrendous dream of my life. Well, horrible to this point in time only really. The dream went like this:

Setting: Balwyn High School Hall

I was sitting in the school hall worried as I commence answering my Legal Studies Paper. I look over and see everyone digging their pens into those papers and I then do the same. Some stroke of luck overcame me and I realized that I was running out of paper so I put my hand up and request for a 2nd booklet *Crazy huh* to which I was received by an old woman slowly shaking and moving towards me. Time is wasting but I am patient. Later in the exam, Mrs. Mitchell for no apparent reason comes up and makes an announcement saying these words, "I'm pleased to inform you that Elizabeth Loke is not Balwyn High School's School Captain for 2010!"

Then I woke up.

Really not the greatest feeling ever, I tell ya. Too much to handle in fact. But nonetheless, I just want exams to be over so that I can start all the fun stuff :D

p.s. Post 500. Wow.

There you see her, sitting there across the way,
She don't got a lot to say but there's something about her
- Kiss The Girl, Alan Menken -

1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

So one exam down another five more to go.

I'm really just looking forward to the end of this week. To some extent, I'm kinda excited to do my Literature Exam because I've FINALLY become interested in the anthology, "Minimum of Two". For the past three to four weeks, I've just blandly read it and considered it to be the most boring book ever. But over the few days, just spending time annotating and noting things in my book, I've grown to see the strings attached to the different stories in the book and how interesting it has become! I guess somehow, it's proven that Winton isn't that much of an idiot after all and the book isn't just randomly inserted into the Literature syllabus for no reason :)

My Legal Exam is tomorrow and I feel somewhat prepared. I've done all the past exams from 2004 to 2008, NEAP papers, COMPLAK 2006 papers, Selected questions from past exams and MORE trial Questions. At this point in time, I just want to relax and not worry about it. I might do some questions tomorrow morning since my exam is at 3pm but just gonna take it easy for now.

Gonna start revising for other subjects tomorrow because I don't want to fail the others just because I score in Legal. It never works that way. I might just start with a practice essay for Lit just because I'm feeling Literature-y or even possibly intellectual.

I installed Microsoft Office 2007 last night and was meddling around with this program called OneNote which has this pretty cool function of detecting words in a photo. They provided a sample to test out:
Pretty cool yeah? After trying a few other photos, I decided to try it on one of my favourite photos from xkcd.com :D
FAIL

Btw. I lost the game.

I am sixteen going on seventeen,
Baby I am naive
- Sixteen Going on Seventeen, Sound of Music OST -

The song I can no longer sing
(u)

:P Nonetheless, I am officially SEVENTEEN!


Thank you to everyone who wished me Happy Birthday in so many possible ways whether it be through text, Facebook, MSN or face to face :) The overwhelming number of them really made my day (as generic as messages can be xD)

I tried to compile a list of everyone who wished me and the list goes :D
1. Daniel Lim
2. Jason Huang
3. Yu He
4. Noon Bid Lee
5. Luke Tsui
6. Ashlee Ung
7. Louis Lau
8. Adam Ch'ng
9. Kim Nguyen
10. Victor Loh
11. Jade Moloney
12. Tal Cohen
13. Zoltan Baranyai
14. Rachel Fong
15. Alex Lio
16. Eddy Kusdiana
17. Avis Quach
18. Matt Yong
19. Kelvin Yang
20. Edric Chia
21. Brendan Doidge
22. Harold Nguyen
23. Li Ann Goh
24. Nadali Dayananda
25. Michelle Loke
26. Domenic Chung
27. Tyson Tan
28. Victor Tran
29. Andy Liu
30. Vincent Lin
31. Jennifer Quan
32. Allen Zhang
33. Krystal Fung
34. Cellini Cheung
35. Vignesh Shanmugapalan
36. Ian Ngo
37. Sarah Boden
38. Justin Sim
39. Samantha Ter
40. Meg Scully
41. Gloria Wong
42. Serena Lam
43. Jian Wen
44. Weng Yan San
45. Siew Kei Ong
46. Alicia Choong
47. Celine Choong
48. Ng Jun Kang
49. Danial Rizzal
50. Chloe Phang
51. Han Wei Cha
52. Jessica La
53. Eilidh Nicoll
54. Jason Vujicic
55. Jin Ng
56. Yi Yang Lu
57. Kim Falconer
58. Jonathan Tse
59. Christopher Hong Tat Khoo
60. Chanelle Perera
61. Jessica Aguda
62. Sachin Perera
63. Lisa Clark
64. Gig Mogiannis
65. Stephen Pellis
66. Arthur Lam
67. Hanh-Nhi Huynh
68. Mei Gwen Tee
69. Stephen Chan
70. Chermaine Ch'ng
71. Eleanor Francis
72. Brendan Law
73. Yusuke Nakajima
74. Brenda Lau
75. Ki Tat
76. Evania Lok
77. Kathleen To
78. Nathan Ting
79. Luke Yong
80. Mei Ling Wong
81. Karl Chai
82. Rudy Sumarno
83. Adam Ch’ng
84. Mark Wan
85. Karlie Kan
86. Terri Salwin
87. Tina Afshar
88. Mae Gene Yew
89. Rosie Bisas
90. Tony Dinh
91. Gianni Castellani
92. Tenzing Lama
93. James McKenzie
94. Irfan Amin
95. Kerrin Naidoo
96. Wei-Ning Yong
97. Tiong Ren Saw
98. Michelle Chen
99. Henry Rhim
100. Jeffrey Kung
101. Aaron Leong
102. Jacinta Rosewarne
103. Alicia Lau
104. Mihir Popat
105. Loreen Lai
106. Steven Zhang
107. Yu Wei Lam
108. Yoke Yee Woon
109. Peter Rosewarne
110. Hannah Pho
111. Daniel Attia
112. Jia Ling Chong
113. Anton Wu
114. Alex Ho
115. Daniel Ma
116. Natalie Ling
117. Eugene Lim
118. Emerald Law
119. Benson Chan
120. Jason Hawking
121. Jennifer Liu
122. Vivienne La
123. Adrian Goh
124. Steph Lum
125. Steph Loke
126. Andrew Liu
127. Millie Ong
128. Julian Tan
129. Teoh Xiu Jong
130. Fiona Szutu
131. Hao Soon
132. Joel Alati
133. Cindy Li
134. Edward Goh
135. Vanessa Lee
136. Esther Cheah
137. Leonie Lim
138. Greg Dimopoulos
139. Emelia Suraya
140. Ee Ping Yeoh
141. Geraldine Lee
142. Devin Toh
143. Sheranne Liew
144. Shahzad Badvi
145. Chloe Lokan
146. Katerina Kiburg
147. Calise Hu
148. Nick Lui
149. Kasun Kanangama
150. SynNa Ong
151. Wen Zhi Chee
152. Shin Yeen
153. Sarah Liau
154. Evon Chin
155. Sheryl Hoe
156. Noreen oi
157. Luke Wang
158. Jamie Ling
159. Samantha Lee
160. James Le
161. Nicholas Eng
162. Sammy Yim
163. Tim Fong
164. Rachael Hua
165. Daniel Ong
166. Josh Centeno
167. Bond Szeto
168. Katrina Chooi
169. Sue Ann Leong
170. Kah-Lipp Liew
171. Alyssa Loke
172. Josie Liu
173. Darren Mok
174. Lavnish Prashar
175. Aashima Singh
176. Chloe Lin
177. Nur Atli
178. Iman Abdulhai
179. Li Jane Lim
180. Soo Xing San
181. Sam Chin
182. Vidur Valera
183. Azlan Abidin
184. William Yu
185. Amy Sia
186. Shana Shafiza
187. Carol Wu
188. Jimmy Xu
189. Dominic Jones
190. Alice Wei
191. Jenny Goh
192. Izzatie Ali Sabri
193. Julian Kim Pereira
194. New Su Shern
195. Azhar Ashraf Jamel
196. Selene Tam
197. Arvind Qumar
198. James Lim
199. Hsu-Ann Lee
200. Mina Ivanov
201. Steven Goh
202. Tiffeny Chan
203. Sasha Locke

Thank you everyone :) It's most definitely made my day :D

Well, if anyone's interested in what I ended up doing for my 17th Birthday... As follows:

Day started off simple; had church :D I didn't really know what to wear and especially cos it was a 32degrees day... I was really limited to what I could wear but ANYWAYS- I just wore this.Inside singlet-JayJays
Outside top-Cotton On
Shorts-Cotton On

No I'm not trying to promote Cotton On just because I work there. Truth be told, I actually DO have a lot of Cotton On clothes... Can't help it. They're cheap and comfortable to wear :P

Newhoos, after church, I went to a friend's house for what was supposed to be a simple get-together with some parents and teachers for Sunday School. However, the party just sorta got abit bigger than expected :P Lotsa Aunties and Uncles :P And they did the sweetest thing! They sang me Happy Birthday! Very touched honestly :)

Well then after, I had choir and all that jazz per usual :) To celebrate, I had dinner at a place called Melissa's in Templestowe with my family and the food was alright :) I had a Chicken Risotto and honestly, it's more Chicken than risotto which depends if it's a good or bad thing :PI was thinking about the PRIVILEGES of being 17 and honestly, I have to say 17 could well be the dullest year of my life. Sucks to say because I'm 17 now, I need to apply for a Concession Card now -.-" But on the more exciting side, I get to enroll for the electoral role :D

I think about it and I realize, 17 is neither sweet or legal. It's just in-between. How utterly Lame. But on the uber bright side, now that I'm 17, I get a higher pay when I work :D *two thumbs up*

I really want exams to be over so that I can start singing and everything :(

Some presents I got these few days were from my parents, Aunty Kim, Luke and Victor :D My dad already gave me a necklace from awhile back so that's alright :P I wore it to the formal :) So it has some sentimental value to it :D My mum gave me money to buy Havaianas and knowing how much my parents think they are overrated, I'm very thankful for them understanding how desperate I am for a pair of thongs. Aunty Kim gave me two beach bags which have embroideries on it of a pair of bikini and sandals on the other. Very Cute and like I said before, photos will be up soon. Internet's being a cranky poopface atm. Victor got me a little piggy soft toy which sticks to the car windows and I've decided to use that on my first car. Hopefully I'll find it when the time comes... Now, a photo would've been the best way to show what Luke got me but anyways.... He got me...ROB THOMAS'S CRADLESONG ALBUM!!
*crosses off the To-Buy List on the Left Hand Side of the blog*
:) THANK YOUUUU :D
I'm listening to him now and bygollygeewhiz.
I love it!! :D

When one is approached with confronting news; news that one does not expect to be real- what is there for one to do? One seeks advice from others but only to be received in humour and mockery. One would assume the respect from one to another is mutual and that the seriousness of the actual issue would be retained but regardless of friendship and care, laughter fills the air; even when it ought to be tears.

Tears of pain for a fellow friend is hurt.
Tears of frustration that one does not know what to do.
Tears of worry for a fellow friend who is lost and confused.
Tears of anger that one can only do so much.

Where can one find a being who shares the same fear and worry for this issue? Can two people ever feel equally dedicated and devoted to an issue? I think so. But where is that other person?

Why does one bother?
Why does one care?
What is there to bother and care when everyone treats it with little importance?
There is no one to share this with and no one to worry with.

So lonely one feels. Continuously feeling alone by oneself. No one to be with them and no one to be around them. Just them alone, by themselves. However, when one realizes there is no one on Earth who would listen to their cries, the One in heaven will. Without doubt, it is known that God will listen and God will act.

No one knows where, no one knows when. But whenever and wherever it maybe, one can trust that God will guide them in the right direction to avoid further complications and by speaking to Him, the burden of the issue is lifted up to him and the heart feels its correct mass again.

The seaweed is always greener is somebody else's lake,
You dream about going out there but that is a big mistake
- Under The Sea, Alan Menken -

Thoroughly amused.
I was in the shower when I heard a dog bark. Well, shocked I listened again waiting for the bark. Turns out, it wasn't a dog. It was my dad.

Today's the last Friday of school I have before exams. I can't believe school is finally coming to an end.

THANK GOD!

On a more serious note, I really would like to dedicate this post to the big man up in heaven, God for everything he's given me. In a way, everything he's set out for me in the next few weeks have really showed me how real God is and more importantly, how real he is in my life.

I was juggling up between going back to Malaysia to staying here. The decision was very hard to make because honestly, my family isn't the best at staying apart. It just doesn't feel right. But God drew the lines and showed me where I was to go. He gave me not only two jobs, but two jobs I know I'll have fun doing.

I was on Vogue.com.au's forum a few days ago and comments people made about Cotton On was repulsive and I began to worry what is to come with me working there. It built up and I began to doubt what things are meant to be. I wonder if I should look for another job to ensure a consistent income and all the unnecessary worries began flooding in. But nonetheless, I realized. If I had trusted God to give me this job, I should trust that he has a plan for me this summer :) Whatever it is, I'm ready for it.

I'm constantly worried about my application for School Captain next year and obviously, Presentation Night can either be an absolute blast for me or a dead dread. It's just inevitable to feel this way. What if I don't get it? I still have to go and suffer the embarrassment. It's not that I don't accept the fact that I didn't get it. If I'm not elected, then I accept defeat respectfully and will obviously be happy for the one selected. But I can't help feeling slightly emptier with my failure. Thank God, he provided me with not one, but two awards. I suppose in a way, as materialistic as it sounds, it's just God's way of assuring me things will be alright :) Whatever the problem may be, He's right next to me as I take that step of faith.

I thank God for a great family and great friends and great teachers. I thank God for people around me and also things He has blessed me with. I thank God for the opportunity to study and guide others too. I thank God for who I am and how I am perceived to be no matter how one may judge me or think me to be another. I thank God for how He has made me whether fat or skinny, tall or short, zit or not, I thank God for everything. How he made me is how He wants me to represent Him and I know my mind cannot comprehend God's reason behind things.

My coming weeks are pretty jam-packed and I think I owe all readers a duty of care to explain :P In order:::
1. ESL Exam
2. Legal Exam
3. Accounting Exam
4. Methods Exam
5. Literature Exam
6. General Methods Exam
7. Piano Class
8. Birthday Dinner with Churchies
9. Birthday Lunch with Schoolies
10. Crown Launch with CHIME
11. Course Confirmation
12. Transition
13. Presentation Night
14. Cotton On Induction
15. SUMMER BREAK!

I can't believe Year 12 is actually coming. MMMm.



Put The Big Red Button on your site

I need to be bold,
Need to jump in the cold water
- I'd Rather Be With You, Joshua Radin -

I have a confession to make.
I miss my friends Luke and Victor alot :(

Why?

Cos before today, I haven't seen them in 2 weeks. I miss having someone to hurry up when I'm at my locker and a friend to walk back home with :( You guys suck.

Nonetheless, it was great seeing them today :) Thus, realizing how much I missed them :(

Well it's been quite a bipolar day but thankfully, the great stuff overthrow the stupid things :D Award winners were informed today and praise God, I'm one of them :) More info on that will be revealed later this month :D At least this gives me something to look forward to Presentation Night :P Another thing is I got my ESL Outcome back and score was fairly well-played :D 28.5/29 :D:D All I can say is racism goes a long way =/

On the contrary, evil spies have attacked my brain during classes with annoying pitched voices gossiping.
"Did you know ___ is dating ___?"
REALLY!
Yeah!
And it went on and on and on...

Later in the day, I was so unfortunate fortunate to listen in on two girls talking about losing weight.
I'm gonna lose weight now, not eating chips anymore!
But you look great!
I can't- going out on ...
Seriously... I understand how some conversations can be brainless and pointless, but false modesty is pathetic and overrated. We're all great the way we are and end of story. Case closed.

Guess what :D It's cookie monster's birthday :D Go on http://www.google.com and have a look :D

Barely even friends,
Then somebody bends unexpectedly
- Beauty and The Beast, Celine Dion & Peabo Bryson -

Guess what.
What?

I'M AUSTRALIAN

I had my Citizenship ceremony just before at Hawthorn Town Hall and if you're wondering if I feel any different to being Malaysian... No, not really. But, the awesomeness will flow in when I turn 18 :)

When I turn 18; I'll get to vote therefore meaning I'll be on the electoral role, which means I'll have a chance to be a JUROR. Oh my gosh, I'm so excited just thinking about it :D Honestly, I don't understand why people don't want to vote. It's such a privilege to have the government actually want to know your opinion on who should be government. Especially when they fine you for not voting- what's the harm?

Anywhoos, attire for important day. I wore my Cooper St dress from Myer, Cardigan from Cotton On and shoes from Singapore.
The town hall had a chandelier-thing-which-really-isn't-one-but-a-wannabe-one which sorta lit up the hall in a warm feeling.It was my second time going there anyways. First time I was there was last year during a choir performance. The Chandelier Room on the other hand had ACTUAL chandeliers and a very grand feel to it :)

We had some special people coming in to witness the ceremonies and one of them was MP Petro Giorgiou :)Honestly, I don't know that much about him but I felt sad when he mentioned this would be one of his last ceremonies attending as a Member of Parliament. Unsure what he meant, maybe an election's coming up or something, I ono but poor old man :(

After the ceremony, there were some refreshments in the other rooms. I smoothly picked up a glass of white wine and obviously, no fuss :)Guilt overthrows me though. Usually I'm sufficiently okay with alcohol tolerance but I'm not sure why, I have the worst headache atm. It wasn't even like heavy alcohol. -.-" Who knows what's wrong with me?Family Photo :)

Anyways, been doing more study for Legal *sigh* More questions, more pain, more frustration, more stress :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Victor, V-tar, Vtac, V-train, Victard, *makes up more nicknames on the spot* Vista, Vidiot, stupid, idiot, etc.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU!

Have a good birthday and a safe year :P

On vit au jour le jour,
Nos envies, nos amours
- La Même Histoire, Feist -

A warm fuzzy feeling engulfs me whenever I speak to him.
No, it's not that kind of fuzzy feeling.
I don't think it's something romantic but just a comforting sorta feeling.
How queer.
Nonetheless, it feels kinda good and I'm somewhat thankful for him :)
Who knows?
Actually, I do.
It's not even mentally possible.

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I'm sorry if this confuses anyone =/ As much as I love having readers for my blog, it's still a place I rant and just have thoughts splattered into words :)

Why are there so many songs about rainbows?
What's on the other side?
- The Rainbow Connection, Jason Mraz -

Reasons for a Court Hierarchy
Provides an element of consistency for the justice system creating stability in what is done and decided upon. Verdicts of cases with similar facts are similar, hereby making it a consistent and not indefinitely variable.
There is the opportunity for judges to distinguish the precedent claiming that material facts in the case differs to the case in the precedent therefore eliminating the need for the judge to follow the particular precedent.

Provides an efficient administrative department for the legal system because documentations for trials in different courts are done separately which prevents a delay in cases being heard. If the hierarchy was nonexistent and there was only one court, it would be a higher chance of delays and an inefficient timely resolution of dispute.
The cost of employing such a large number of administrative staff all over Victoria is very high and by having so many courts in the state, calculations of the cost of having numerous staff working in the administrative section is unreasonable and often too expensive to the extent of necessary reconsideration of the required number of staff in a court.

Provides the ability to appeal to a case whether it be on the point of law, sentence, or remedy. The hierarchy allows for defendants to satisfyingly accept their verdict of being guilty beyond reasonable doubt or liable on the balance of probabilities after a series of appeals which can be carried out.
The ability to appeal to a variety of reasons in a trial may cause delays in courts like the County Court and Supreme Court because these courts have their original civil and criminal jurisdiction but also criminal and civil appellate and because of this opportunity of the defense to appeal against a particular aspect of the verdict, this may result in delays and further complications depending on how long the appeal may go for.

Opportunity for courts to specialize in a specific area of the law. By specializing, it is evident that judges hearing a specific area of the law will become more experienced and gain expertise in that area as compared to other judges in the other courts. Such examples are the Children's Court which only hears trials for defendants between the age of 10 to 18.
The wide variety of accessing methods of dispute resolution can often be confusing to individuals as they may not be aware of which court they should approach to hear their case. This may deter them from having their dispute heard in court. If they are also unaware of the alternative dispute resolutions like mediation and conciliation, their unfair dispute may be dismissed which will oppose the belief of the law in protecting individuals' rights.

Do you hear me talking to you,
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
- Lucky, Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Calliat -

PARTY!!

I have to say though, I'm thoroughly amused that people automatically assume that after I take photos, it goes straight on Facebook and my blog. No, I'm not saying they're wrong- I'm just amused.

Anyways, it was Aleks&Eilidh's Birthday party today and we celebrated it at Aleks' place :) It was a dress up party but not necessarily everyone came as ghosts, witches blablabla. In fact, I don't think anyone came as that.. I came as a hippie :D Jade went as Alice in Wonderland and Sibel went as a sailor!The party was pretty awesome :) Lotsa dancing and very tired obviously. I'm just lying in bed atm so drained from the whole night! Feet hurt from the sandals but I count my blessings compared to all the girls who wore heels :(I didn't get to eat cake =[ I was probably too busy doing whatever and o.m.g. THE TOILET WAS ALWAYS OCCUPIED. LOL! (tu)Cotton On miss-called me twice today. For some reason, I freaked out and got really worried that they wanted to pull back on the offer and in the end, I didn't have a job. However, when I called back, all the girl wanted to know was which branch I was assigned to :P "Elizabeth, Mega." :D

I.
Art.
Awesome :D